After so long.

Laziness has dominated my action nowadays, it's been awhile since I last update my blog due to my slothfulness.

Although nobody would be reading it anyway, but perseverance is vital to tons of things.

Well, not much happened lately, beside hanging out everyday, killing times, as well as enjoying life and food to the maximum.

And yes, I categorized food and life together, no food no life eh. Lols.

Additionally, I missed everyday lunch by waking up late, fantastically splendid.

Hasn't been this free since ages, but I guess I've relaxed a little bit too much already..

By the way, I've found my job, I will be starting to work on 1st of December.

Have to start taking some responsibilities on the money I spent like the running tap water.

Working hours is pretty flexible, as long as the boss sees result, I could actually knock off anytime I want, or maybe just skip a working day.

How awesome is this, but I think it wouldn't be so easy like I thought since I just started to get in touch with all these credit card thingy.

Actually half of the reason is that maybe I could forget some unwanted thinkings and imaginations by working relentlessly.

People kept asking me to look for another, and to get over someone that is unworthy.

Everyday, every single minute passed, I kept distracting myself from thinking about it, numbing myself from this pain.

Every sleepless nights, I watch drama until I get heavy-eyelid-ed just to fall asleep, and it is already dawn when I got tired.

Staying home is actually torturous, people tend to think much when they are not doing anything.

So hanging out is the only way of escaping myself from this instrument of torture.

Time passed, I don't seem to get over it yet, never seems to stop a moment to miss you.

It seems that, the more I tried to escape, the greater disappointment I got from missing you more.

Friends scorned me from behaving this way, asking me to look for better, I disagreed.

Knowing and understanding someone all over again is tiring, at least for now I am too weary for it.

Since the first time meeting her, I've been thinking of settling down and lead to a stable relationship.

So I made effort to knowing her, giving her cares, spared most of my time on it.

Yet it ended up like this expectedly, sadly and disappointedly.

No one gets to blamed on this but myself.

I took things seriously before understanding it, once again.

Every time I try to see things clearly, the conclusion I got is always negative.

I mean, it always turn out I am the only one that still holding it tightly, couldn't bear to let go.

And I mean nothing to her already, this is a clear fact.

I once thought naively, after so many heart broken relationships of hers, I could give her my best to mend her heart.

To be someone that can be trusted fully, completely.

To be someone that can be relying on, although you might say you wouldn't be relying on boyfriend. Lols.

It's fine, you always do whatever you want, persist on what you think is right, and it's alright to me.

However, these don't matter anymore.

Frankly speaking, I feel that I am needed by you when you need me once in a awhile, when don't, I am nothing.

This is just my one-sided thinkings anyway.

That night you were lying on my laps when you were drunk, I spoke my heart out to a friend that fetch us home.

I asked, "am I very silly doing all these for her?"

I said, when I first met her I've fallen for her already, I've made up my mind that she is the only sweetie.

I don't know why, even after seeing other guys cuddling her, after saying all those harsh words, after asking her to go away and ask her to stay with her friends, I still couldn't just leave her there, I told him.

I still went back for her, I was worried.

I failed on letting go, guess this is my greatest weakness after all.
But deep inside my heart, she worths all these best that I could give regardless of she needing it or not.

On the day before she backed to Sg, we talked things out.

She told me she will consider about us, I told her to think of it for my sake, she agreed.

As for now, I bet she has forgotten like she always does.

Let nature takes its course then.

A meaningful song to intro. :)

Another sleepless night.

谁还会在乎一起傻傻说过的那些话
是我没那个福气

没福气却又爱上你..

What a night.

Just got home, freaking tired.
I sprained my ankle and some mofos still stepped on it while I was dancing on the dance floor.

F you all.

Obvious answer.

Alright, I guess the answer I desired is pretty obvious already.
I mean nothing to you.
Been looking for you for the entire day, all I got in return is those cold responds.
Of course, you are dating someone, and I don't even have the actual number you are using right now.
I only can contact you through messenger or Facebook, some more you were online with your phone.
How do you expect me to contact you?
You don't even reply, you still accused me for not looking you up.
Fine, I am speechless..
You got your new life, new phone number, new contact list, and of course, I am excluded from the list.
I really don't know why you looked me up that night when you backed to JB..

I've tried my very best not to contact you, try to stay away from you.
To mend my broken heart.
Thought you've gave everything up already?
But still, you pulled me back to this mess again.
We are in a mess, don't you think?
You can't made up your mind, you don't want a relationship, these is all you said.
I've made myself so clear, you chose not to accept.
So please, I am sick of those guessing games already.

Just tell me what you want, no lies, if you still cherish on this fading bond.
Or, you could just leave it.
Perhaps you don't even care..
Fine, it's alright.

Cared too much.

I hope that you are well, hope that you are alright, hope that you are safe..
You won't know how worried I am when you went to those place with alcohols.
You always couldn't limit yourself from drinking too much..
Do you ever know that it's very dangerous for girls, some more I don't even know who you are hanging out with.
Some more you always sick easily when you are tired and not getting enough sleep.
Sighs.
Sorry, I cared too much.
But I am just couldn't help myself from caring you.
I am sorry.

Carefree, yet confusing.

Well, not much happened lately beside being a heavy-clubber and meeting lots of friends!
Everyday, eat, sleep and play.
What a life, way too carefree..
:/

It was such a sudden that you called me last night.
Was kind of fed up actually when you asked me not to come and fetch you while I was trying all my ways and best to get to my car.
Had supper with Ms. June instead.
She was kind of pity eh, wallet lost.
Pocket money all gone, including those important stuffs..
Curse the thief eh.
However, may all the good lucks be with you after the bads.
:)

Alright, after a night, I am seriously confused right now.
What am I to you and what are we now...?
Thought you gave this up so effortlessly already..
Thought you chose freedom over me, or maybe I am not even in the considerations?
Lols.

Needless to say, I am no longer important anymore, I can feel it.
Perhaps you are just letting the time to fade this away...?

Letting go.

It's time to let go.
Get over it.
Time to mend my heart with glues, it is in pieces.

Lingering still.

It feels like, it was an meaningless conversation to you.
I was like a fool that abandon my pride and dignity to try and sustain it.
Wishing upon a shooting star makes the wish come true, it is just a legend after all..
Should I just get over it?
Everything of you still lingering in my mind, always.
I have a life, but it's not complete without you, sweetheart.
It's been so long since the last time I called you this huh?
:)

A jerk.

Well, you got your freedom that you wanted.
I wouldn't want to take it away from you anymore.
If you are happier that way, I am willing to be a jerk that will make you dislike me more.
:)

I am pretending that I don't care at all, but actually I missed it so much.

Sleepless nights.

I didn't have enough sleep these days and I am very sleepy right now.

Well, out with friends these days and nights or watching drama until very late. Lols.

Ended up with dark circles and yawning spree.
Zzz...

Actually, I wonder why were you looking for me.

But I am quite glad that I still mean something to you.

Maybe I am just thinking too much again.

:)

Speechless.

I've tried to keep you by my side, but you seem the other way round..
Speechless..

It is just a sudden thought.

Randoms.

Wednesday night was my birthday night, and I got wasted like some peeps expected and hoped.
That's totally awesome.
Yea, I am trying to be sarcastic.
Had sort of birthday celebration at Cabana, with friends and ma cousin!
Had much of drinks that night, I even vomited.
Know what, something I hate the most is I couldn't recall a thing after I vomited, totally wasted a night.
I did stupid things, again.
I loved doing silly things when I drunk I guess.
I called her, but I couldn't remember the conversation, not even a word.
I actually forgot that I did call her that night, was shocked while checking my recent calls. Lols.
Well, I don't have the courage to ask either.
Great birthday after all, full of laughs and tears.
:)

Had outings for these few days.
My relatives (mother side) came over to my house and stay!
I feel good having them around, lively home it became!
Met a friend, Ms June today.
So long never see her eh, kind of missing her.
It's good to see her again!
:)

Sad one.

It's raining heavily right now.
Just got home from somewhere far, seriously far.
First thing I do when I reached home was viewing your photos.
I miss you.

Received greetings and blessings from peeps.
Well, this is not a happy birthday to me, disappointedly..
It's a sad one in fact.
It's unbearable to leave, but I've got no choice.
I will try to endure the pain I feel inside.
:(

Had big crabs as sort of birthday countdown at some restaurant with friends!
But that place is really far..
:D

离开.

离开你以后, 并没有  更自由...

Days.

Sunday, been to Holiday Plaza with cousin and sister, bought my phone's casing.
Had McDonald's (sister's treat) and got my earrings (my birthday present from cousin). Lols.
Had an early celebration as well with my relatives that night, dad's treat (how rare).
xD

Well, now has passed 12 already, so it's considered as Tuesday.
So I shall refer Monday as yesterday eh.
Alright, craps are enough.
Just now, been to somewhere seriously awesome!
Windy, beautiful, calming sound of sea waves and amazing feeling are still not enough to describe that place.
Woot, with night sky filled with stars, planes landing and taking off..
I somehow touched seeing that scenery.
It turns out creepy when that fella talked about that strong wind is somewhat odd.
:/

My birthday is so close!
Looking forward to my celebration!
Yeah!
:D

Random.

Friday, I woke up late that day.

Had KTV session with her bestie at around eight until midnight..

Been to a mamak stall afterwards and chit-chatted for hours..

Talked mostly about the precious her.

Listened to those, warmed my heart indeed.

I missed those moments with her by my side..

I was once feeling that I was so close to her when I was chatting with her bestie about her.

I am afraid that me and her will be just drifted apart as the time flows, further and further..

:(

Saturday, it was just a normal day to me.

Mom bought iPhone for me as birthday present!

Touched and grateful! Lols.

:D

Been to Singapore all of a sudden.

Just to see her and talk to her.

To ask about last night posts that she posted.

I was shocked when I just got home and saw those..

It was about she cried for some reason that she refused to tell and someone lent her his shoulder and warmed her heart.

That's great.

Anyway, I reached my destination around eight plus and walked around the mall.

Had my light plus late dinner at Toast Box alone.

After waited for some times, I accompanied her home..

We had our supper at a 24-hours hawker nearby her flat.

Didn't talk much due to the last train and bus that I needed to catch.

She rushed me to the train with an unkind attitude. Lols.

Kind of regretted and heavy-hearted while I was on my way home..

Wanted to ask her about something and tell her my thoughts face to face.

But I couldn't, time-wise.

She told me, she wanted to change her number and insisted of not letting people know, even her besties.

And I wonder why.

Anyway, had a phone conversation with her just now before she sleeps.

Talked about that thing happened lately.

Well, it was about a hi-tea with a good friend of mine and I took picture with her.

I showed her the picture because it was just a normal friend outing.

She got mad.

She even decided to give up on this relationship that we built so hard just like that.

And she told me, she can hardly believe in me already due to that occurrence.

It hurts.

She said you got hurt too much in past relationships, and this time, again..

And she got tired already..

I was speechless.

I am being accused of betraying her and yet she refused to accept my explanation and chose to let go..

Does she ever care about my feeling?
Or maybe, she already decided to let go long time ago, and this is just the perfect timing.
I am imagining wildly, again.

Nothing.

Nothing could alter the position of you in my heart, and nothing would change my mind either.

If you opt to let go, there is nothing I could do.

But one thing would not change for sure, you are still the only one I care the most.

A little piece of memory.

I missed the time when we are watching fringe together.
Watching alone is not as fun as watching with you.
Especially your expression when you got scared by some stupid effects or scenes, it is priceless just to watch.
x)

Starved!

I was starved!!
Just got home and I am eating now.
Went out around six and skipped my dinner.
I thought of mom's cooks when the moment I wanted to order, so I'd rather skip it.
To save money and to show that I am a filial son. Lols.
x)

Can't stop myself from stalking your profile.
Lols.

Last night.

Brain is not functioning well, it lags every five minutes.
Splendid hang over effect.
:)

Well, last night been to a place that I used to go every Wednesday night before.
Didn't have much fun, just had few beers with a friend at the lounge bar.
Recalled lots of things over there, that is the place we met for the very first time, unforgettable night.
I actually stayed there until they turned the lights on, after the romantic music part. Lols.
Seeing so many loving couples hugging on the dance floor wasn't a good feeling..
Missed those moments with her so much.
I sent messages to her last night when I was drunk..
:/

My mind.

Right now at this moment, my mind is all about you.
Feel like text you so much..

Fried bananas are great.

Stayed home whole day.
Didn't eat much and not much food to eat at home also. Sighs.
Just had ma fried bananas and coconut juice as hi-tea, mom bought. Lols.
Have to plan some outings soon but I've got some funding problems due to my desire of wanting something.
So mom cut down my pocket money already. Shit!
My birthday is around the corner!
Gonna celebrate an early one with my family and relatives this weekend I guess.
I always tell them, I don't need any present, just give me the money and I will buy myself!
xD

I am missing you, do you miss me as well?

Curiosity kills cat.

Just got home from singing K with ma bro, almost sang my lungs out..

I still don't feel good.
Those sad songs are reflecting my situation right now..
Wondering what are you currently doing..
Sleeping maybe?
Heard that you never online tonight.
Curious.
Every thought is about you, what is wrong with me?
I miss you.
:/

Broken pieces of my heart.

Well, today's not a bright day for me.
Right now at this moment, I am down.

Here are some thoughts and things happened.
Last night was quite dramatic, she came from Singapore to camp at my house out of a sudden working schedule changes.
During dining at Roost Cafe, she was silent all the way, and she preferred reading her book than talking to me which is kind of disappointed.. Sigh.
For some unknown reason, she insisted of going back to Singapore instead of staying overnight here.
So I fetched her to custom after our dinner..
She left from my car and headed to custom.
I was quite down and I started to regret when the moment she went out of car.
So I parked my car somewhere nearby the custom bus stop and I ran towards the way she headed.
Three guards blocked me from going forward for not bringing passport.
I pleaded them for letting me go to look for someone and will be coming out very soon afterwards.
One of the guard is kind-hearted enough that decided to escort me there.
So i continued my running and luckily she wasn't walking too fast.
I managed to bring her back to my car and she seemed tired so she slept on the seat with blanket on.
After a long way to home, she went straight to bed.
Everything is still peaceful.
Then, something really hurting has spoken from her, "let's not contact each other anymore, I'm vexed"..
I was stoned and I asked why, and no answer replied.
The feeling of heart broken, it was so real last night..
Still, we hugged each other to sleep after a long-silent, and I finally calmed to actually fall asleep.
The next morning which is this morning, everything seems normal to me.
In fact, it wasn't.
She took out her ring which is our couple ring and left it on my desk.
She refused to want it back when I asked, I was speechless..
We had another silent breakfast at Toast Cafe, a cafe that I used to have my meal here everyday during my college times.
On the way fetching her to custom, I spoke my thoughts out.
I apologized for being such a vexing fella.
I thanked her for those precious memories that she has given me..
Those moments, those memories, are really priceless to me..
It seems to impossible to happening again.
I told her, if this is what she hoped for, I shall granted what she really wants if I really cared about her.
I told her as well, she's still the only one that i loved, much.
I asked her to take back the ring, it is belonging to her whether she wants to throw it away or keep it.
I was shocked that she actually tried to open the car window and tend to throw it away, window was locked by the way.
She left my car and headed towards Singapore.
On the way back, I wet my face..
I am useless I know, and I do admit that.
I am so fragile when things are related to her..
I felt helpless and aimless while driving.
Part of my heart has gone missing..
So I drove to a good friend's house, text-ed her to accompany me for a short while.
However, she's just like what she has told me, not good in consoling people.. Lols.
Still, grateful for sparing your study time just to cheer this friend up.
Thanks. :)

As what I would usually do, I text-ed her a long one.
In words, I apologized again for vexing her, thanked her again for those sweetest moments in my life that she gave, and as well with these, "You are still the only one I loved very much"..
I felt that I am so useless after I sent that, I am just spineless I think..
I blamed myself in front of her for putting her in such a high position in my heart, but in fact I never regret on doing that.
I behaved like a paranoid after we broke up, I was always imagining wildly, negatively.
Frankly speaking, I can't afford to lose her, and yet I actually lost her already.
Love is unfair, one chose to wave the white flag, there's nothing the other one could do.
For me, this has happened just too quickly to accept.

Well, I still love you.
I am still hoping that you could come back to my side, still wishing that I could hold your hand, hold you tightly in my embrace, again..
It seems impossible by now..

Faded..

Hi-tea.

Enjoyed hi-tea with Miss Yunn Shyen at Niniq yesterday!
Had ma favourite CCTV look-alike cake, so chocolaty!
Touched that she still hung out with me even thought her next final paper is on Thursday!
:D

Shopping day.

Sunday, went Singapore early in the morning.
Had a great great shopping day with her for the entire day!
Freaking tiring.
Actually she wanted to go back early at around 7 something and yet we shopped until 10 and had our late dinner nearby her house.
We had McDonald's!
Singapore McD is totally different from M'sia ones.
That day, we bought not much clothes and spent most on food! Lols.
Singapore food is terribly expensive eh.
Well, had fun with her and took some pictures!
All of the pictures are in her phone, too bad my phone camera sucks.
Day was awesome after all, as long as it is with her around, except those stupid arguments.
:D

Simplest intention.

I've been plainly sleeping, eating, gaming and watching movies and dramas for the entire day.
It's like, so long never been so relaxing already, months I think?
Last night went Jusco with family to help with carrying stuffs, such a filial son I am! Lols.
Actually I just wanted to follow my mom and see what to buy over there, Topman maybe?
Her bill.
xD

Looking forward to shop with her in Singapore tomorrow!
Enjoyed our conversation via webcam with her just now, sweet indeed.
<3

What I told you was real, I am grateful for sparing your precious resting time to me..
Every night after you work and days when you off..
I am really touched.
In the other hand, I hope that you are not doing that just to want a smile for me.
I would not smile if this is not your own will or making you even more tired.

I simply want you to be cheered up after a long, tiring day.
That's my simplest intention.
:)

Overslept again.

Had sweet moments with her!
Had brunch together at somewhere nearby Niniq.
One tiny and vintage restaurant with Korean, Japanese and Chinese cuisines.
They have a diverse variety choices of food even though the dining place and the kitchen is so small. Lols.
We are supposed to wake up early for an actual breakfast and yet we overslept again..
:/

Well, the haze problem is quite terrible I think.
Thanks to some Indonesia swines.
I couldn't even see the building clearly which is just 50 meters (approximately) away from me while I was driving..
:|

Furthest distance.

Been to Monash this afternoon before lunch!
Gosh, the environment is totally different from UCSI.
The whole university is like, so clean and so happening!
Everyone was gathering around canteen, library and everywhere, how lively!
Much better than my current university indeed.
Well, better not to put in so high hope at the first place, in the case of higher disappointment.. Lols.
Had Fullhouse Cafe afterwards!
x)

Right now at this moment, I don't really know, how long can this last..
Being together with you, but not actually as one, relationship wise.
At present, I am having the feeling of that, you will be leaving at any moment, anytime, without any sign would be shown.
Don't really know what's in your mind.
Kind of feeling insecure, since no one will ever know my existence if they never be told by yourself right?
I feel like I am just a nothing?
You seem still keeping everything to yourself..
And now I finally realized what is the furthest distance..
:/

However, watching you sleep is still the best thing ever..
<3

Going smoothly.

Woke up so early today, yet still kind of heavy-eyelid.
Current location: Sunway Town!
Mr. Jason still sleeping, waiting for him to wake up and bring me to Monash!
Will straight head to bus station for going back JB afterwards.
Reason is because, someone is coming over my house tonight and camp!
x)
Anyway, hope everything will be going smoothly as I hope.
I mean in the sense of my future university, I really hope for an offer letter from them!

You are my sunshine.

You Are My Sunshine

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamt I held you in my arm.
When I awoke, I was mistaken,
So I hung my head down and cried.

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

You make me happy when skies are grey.

You'll never know dear, how much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

Thought of this song all of a sudden, it's lame I know.
xD

Freeman, at last.

First of all, is something that is extremely important.
Which is.. My exam is over!! Woot!
Holiday mood: Activated! (although it has already been activated long ago)
:|

Just shortened my hair!
Wanted to dye it straight away actually, but I think I better have more patience.
There is a saloon located somewhere nearby my sweet home which is freaking cheap.
I've been letting the lady boss scissoring my hair since I was secondary!
The price are reasonable indeed.
40 bucks only eh, for dyeing.
Hard to imagine right? Lols.

Well, about the last paper this morning, speechless..
A point of fact, I don't really have total confidence in some of the answers I wrote!
Sighs..
Anyway, now is my holiday and I am gonna fully enjoy it!
I would be just ignoring everything about academic until I got my result I think.
x)

However, bad always come with something good, this is life.
Good and bad things are always equilibrium.
But, how come so many thick-skinned fellas always posted or sent those disgusting messages to you?
Grrr..
x(

I wonder why you are kind of giving me cold shoulder after last night conversation.
Maybe this is just my another over-thinking?

Two and a half hour.

Well, just woke up from a quick nap, exceptionally sleepy.
Yet I still have few more notes to revise.
Feel like lying back onto my bed gravely..
Two and a half hour to my exam, and no more exams for a month or two afterwards!
By that time I would like to relax to the maximum and of course, play hard!
In any case, I still have to get back to my notes before this could actually become the reality..
Sighs..
Can't really study with the holiday mode on, I mean, it's real hard to concentrate!
:/

Just you.

Miss those moments when I turn my head, you will just appear in my sight.
I simply want you to be mine.
<3

Crystal clear.

It supposed to be a nice conversation, and yet it turned gloomy when we talked about that topic.
As for myself, we are actually together, just not in the status and not officially.
Our feelings are the same, hearts are beating as one, behaviors would not lie.
We got jealous when one is close to someone else, we worried for each other, we cared for each other and more.
What does this prove, isn't it crystal clear?
Just that we shouldn't be going to the fault way if you think that we are already unstable (maybe).
But I don't think it that way and I don't think we are unstable, as long as we are devoted to this relationship.
If I am really the only one that you would like to be together, then it would be no hesitation right?
No time isn't an excuse that I could really accept, communication is the key.
And it would be certainly and unquestionably not making us unstable.
My point of view, this act is just an escaping, escape would not solve the problem but only make it worst.
I just want to be blissed that's why I committed myself to this relationship..
In fact, if we are really and already unstable, and this breaking up will only make us yet more unstable.
I hope we can sort things out as soon as possible.
Being together with you but not in the name is not a very good feeling.
Well, of course I don't like being hanging there like that.
But It doesn't mean we need to end in quick and clean, definitely.
x(

I am just too afraid to lose you..

Anxiety, endless.

Maybe I am just thinking too much, maybe I am just loving too deep, or maybe I am just caring too much?
I don't know why and when it began, I am being pessimistic about it, about us.
Well, i feel anxiety nowadays, keep thinking about unhelpful things.
I always wonder why can't it be the way that I wanted it to be?
Although I am clear about the reason as well as the situation by now.
But I can't help thinking it a different way.
How differently? Like black and white, totally different.
I should have confidence in myself ain't I?
It couldn't be helped.
I am worrying all these whiles, wondering what are you doing and what's really in your mind.
Since we are not really in that status already, everyone has the same chance as me right, or maybe higher?
However, we are still as close as we used to be when we are still as one, as one as in relationship sense.
Maybe someone has replaced my position and I am just being covered in the dark?
I think I better stop all these thoughts before I gone mad.
Bring it to an end, not us, but my thinking.

Study mode.

Well, I am bored and hungry..

I seriously hate exams to the maximum!
I even feel guilty when I play games, what the heck?
After tomorrow, I am a freeman!
Can't wait to sit for the exam!
No wait, I haven't done revising..
You must be pulling my leg!
:|


真他妈的想你!
Saw this from somewhere today, kind of funny but true!
x)

Forgetful.

Alright, I admit this is stupid.
I plugged in my thumb drive to lappie for putting my lab reports in so that I can print it out somewhere.
When the moment I reached the Photostat shop, I realized I've forgotten to bring it along, and it's still plugged.
So I walked home out of no choices..
The sun is freaking bright and hot!
Sorry my fair skin, bear with it..
:/

Guess someone has passed her forgetfulness on me already..

Lame game.

Just got up from my sweet dream, and i was kind of amazed when i looked at my phone.

I was like, whoa, today so early huh? Lols.
Actually I woke up at nine something, and I spent an hour plus rolling on bed..

:|

Sitting in front of the screen, first thing of all, clicked on Facebook and then, Pirate Ahoy..

It's a Facebook Playfish game that is very fun, yes very fun, and addictive..

Imagine that if you yourself can be a pirate captain like Lufey in One Piece?
Although most of the people think that I am lame, but I don't really care.

Anyway, I still have a report on hand, gotta hand it in today..

Guess i better start doing it now huh, instead of typing here and moving my ship to explore treasure islands!

x)

When you are gone, the pieces of my heart i am missing you..

Birthday surprise.

Was viewing our photos, our lovable memories.
This picture was taken on your birthday!
15th of August.
It is seriously heart warming, just like the blooming sunflower!
:)

Wrote you a card, bought you a cake and the sunflower as this picture shown.
With a surprise that filled with love and excitement!
Guess I was the only one that nervous.. Lols.


Sometimes i wonder, are you still keeping that card?
Or you've already forgotten about it?
Since you are always so forgetful..
:p

Thought of what you've told me, the reasons of yours.
Regretful to say, it doesn't really convince me at all.
I found it kind of odd to me, why can't a loving couple being together?
However, it's your own choice and freedom to do what you want to get yourself out of this self-suffering right?
Being a burden myself isn't good in feeling as well.
You did the right thing to protect yourself, nothing is wrong.
Just that i don't think it's worth it to wave the white flag just like that.
It's real difficult to find true hearts nowadays..
x(

You would never know how much it hurts.

Ticking clock.

These few days with you was just like a beautiful occurrence.
Time passed so quickly like a rush-flowing river that never seem to slowing down..
It's like, the clock was ticking at double speed when you were around.
And now, i am alone in the living room that we've spent our blissful moments.
Even minute is just like an hour, it may sounds a bit exaggerated, but this is what i am feeling right now.
:/

I smell freedom.

Had my structural biochemistry paper this morning, the next paper will be on Wednesday, which is biostatistic.
Kind of disliking this subject.
As for my personal and professional opinion, this is just another extremely lame subject that created by my university to earn our parents' hard-earning money..
:|
After Wednesday 1:59 p.m. and 59 seconds, or maybe earlier (if i am too good), my days after will be filled with joyfulness and care-freeness!
Oh yeah!
I smell freedom!
Think might not be able to go back my sweet home right after the exam, have to go Monash for registering!
Heard from Jason's friend that the closing date for registration is by this month, and it surprised me..
:0

I miss you..

Those moments.

Didn't know display picture fight is so fun.
You know what, these photos represent our sweet moments before all these happened.
Moments that i treasured the most..





At least during those moments, i was still able to tell the entire world that you are mine.
Every movement of yours melted my heart..

The best.

Being your hubby is already the best thing that could actually happened in my life.
I was hoping it could last longer..












You are still my everything..

Slipped away.

Had a enjoyable, lovely, beautiful study weekend with beloved.
Laughs and teases filled the moments!
Thanks for getting here all the way just for me, I am deeply touched.
:')

Anyway, I have a mix feeling.
It is kind of difficult to express it in words.
It is like I am trying to grab the smoke with my bare hand.
I once thought it is already in my grip, and yet it slips away between my fingers.

Long-forgotten.

A sudden urge of reviving my long-forgotten blog.

Thanks to someone reminded me of its existence.

It has been so long since the last post stated date.

I couldn't recall what I’ve actually wrote months ago.

Time flies, people habitually saying it when they think about or chatter about the past.

However, it only suits people who didn't accomplish something significant with wholly effort.

This is just a perception of mine, isn't it pretty factual?

May show your objection as you pleased.

;)

woohoo, watched sherlock holmes with ms. fennie and mr. ah girl in mid valley just now.
not bad weh this movie.
whoever hasn't watched, please don't lose the chance.
it's watchworthy!
:)








mr. sherlock holmes.


had some shoppings in mid valley just now.
saw that blazer again in topman.
cost around 600 plus weh.
but i really like it a lot!
i am gonna buy it someday.
>:)

well, had some trashy basketball matches these days, sport carnival.
can't really mix well with our teammates.
we had 3 matches, won 1 match but lost all.
how disappointing.

ms. fennie is indeed a human with fish tail.
xD

woot, had 7 hours of studying in secret recipe with ms. fennie.
what a good boy.
lol.
in fact, i've played too much these days.
so i have to revise more in exchange, since exams are around the corner.

well, first of all, i would like to apologize to mr. jun loong.
he was starving, but we still have to wait for another friend to come.
so he went away to settle his meal alone, the power of hungriness has dominated over friendship.
how sad.

before that, we were swimming together in angkasa condo.
it's sucha nice place actually, i mean not only the swimming pool but also the rooms.
went to a friend's house after swimming for taking shower, her name is ms. wendy.
her room is 10 times much cleaner than mine, with awesome view some more.
27 floors...
planning to move out already.
just that the lifts are undergoing maintenance always.
so residents have to climb in different effort of staircases depending on their living floor.
nice view does have price to pay.

just got home from dinner in giant-drinks cafe.
can't remember the actual name again, so sorie.
it wasn't a dinner but a supper actually, because it was almost 9.30.
had mushroom chicken chop and tasted hawaiian fish fillet.
the fruit juice is still that BIG!
xD

well, had dinner with ms. fennie in mcd last night.

and this is the mcd toilet.

at the moment i saw all these, i thought the toilet is flooded due to pipe burst or something.

in fact, it was just a mopped floor.

how stupid.

LOL.

at last, we've done our report and submitted it in time.
we skipped our lunch for that shit sia, no appetite before miss amanda got those papers with our names written on it.
after meal, went dance studio for my hip-hop and breakdance lesson.
i only realized i was wearing slippers once i got there.
so i went back for a change but laptop killed my mood of heading back.
sigh.
actually i do prefer popping more, but i got no choice since these are the only choice for modern dance.
in fact, the reason that i am attending dance classes is because of the points.
i need to collect 40 points in a year in order to pass that subject called ECA.
5 points for joining a club, and 3 clubs is the maximum.
well, we are still able to join other clubs but 15 points are the maximum we can obtain by joining.
i've joined basketball as well as pet lovers club.
and i am gonna bring my lovely tarantula babies to show off!
wahaha.

by the way, i just came back from dinner with ms. fennie.
she bought me my favourite drink!
lavender ice-blended drink from fullhouse cafe!
*can't recall the actual name of it, sorie*
actually i was just joking around since she told me she's going there for meeting friends.
that stupid waiter didn't give her a plastic bag, so she has to hold the freezing cup everywhere.
and she were trying to chill the drink with car air-con so the ice won't melt that fast.
how nice!
:D

it happened last night, after a long walk and few-meals-in-once in pasar malam, one of us suggested.
it's wednesday, movie night.
shall we watch sherlock holmes?
everyone acclaimed!
LOL!
so we headed times square for it, BUT!
the last show was 9.30 and we reached there by 10.30.
HOW SAD!
we watched spy next door instead.
*speechless*
we had pool games before movie!
as for the movie, it's lame just as i expected...
movie ended at 1.30.
i straight fainted on bed once i got home.
and i got 8.00 early class this morning.
can you imagine how torturous it is?

what a bloody game, i missed my uni life class because of it.
sigh.
i woke up with heavy guiltiness once i realized the class has already over.
this is my first time skipping class in uni so far.
sports carnival is around the corner and i still couldn't get a full group for basketball.
and ptptn loan need a lot of documents which is hard to obtain.
reports and assignments are still in incomplete status.
another sigh.
well, i think i better start motivating myself.

oh ya, went sunway town on sat and sun, for meeting jason, ah xuan and others.
we went shoppings and had snowflakes ice and fullhouse.
i've finally tasted the lavender ice-blended drink.
:D

yo people, i finally watched avatar, last night.
well, movie ended at 12.30 and i got early class this morning at 8.00.
but seriously, it's all worth it.
i am willing to sacrifice my bed time for this.
this movie is just awesome!
i love blue guys with stripes.
xD

damn, woke up early morning at 6.30.
i thought class start at 8 but it's not!!
it's a 9.30 class eh?!
SHIT!

>:(

well, woke up in the early morning for the tutorial class of calculus.
took shower, had a cup of coffee.
facebooked for awhile.
oh, it's almost the time for class!
took bag and walked to the uni.
once reached, saw friends waiting for entering.
alright, got a roll of seats for us.
and we were waiting...
and more waits...
then i asked, 'eh, how come the shelled lecturer(turtle) still not yet come eh?'
everyone lifted shoulders.
one of us replied me, 'i think class canceled'
after the long wait, we decided to have breakfast since the class seems canceled.
so, we went to the photocopy shop to get our notes before meal.
and we saw 2 classmates...
they we asked her for the canceled tutorial, which came from our curiosity.
then we only realized, there is no tutorial in this week.
we were like, what the hell...
we went canteen afterward, cursed the lecturer on the way to.
and we saw few classmates who wakes up early in the morning for nothing like us......
(-, -")

had spaghetti as breakfast.
:)

*mopping my blog*
too dusty...
been so long to the last time i updated the post 'quited my job'.
laughing.
well, had first week of uni life.
it wasn't so hard to get through.
maybe it's just first week, i don't feel much stress actually.
except from mom and relatives, those who cares about me the most.
backed from aunt house this evening, stayed there since friday.
brought dirty clothes along, and they washed them for me!
laughing out loud.
celebrated my little cousin's birthday as well!
most importantly, i've saved my brain juice from thinking what to eat these days.
sick of deciding where to eat seriously.
it's irritating!

one week passed, kind of get used to the life here already.
not too sure how long can this last.
frankly speaking, i am not confident with my perseverance.
since the moment i came, i stayed home all the time beside having meals.
and i actually stayed in the library and study!
i even sleep and wake up early, with alarm of course.
tonight is an exception.
can't sleep, so right now i am staying awake to revive my dead blog.
but, all these are impossible to happen on me before.
well, present me, i do afraid of scoring low.
and some reasons that keep me doing better in everything.
i really hope that everything will goes on smoothly according my plan.
amitabha...

someone just posted a photo of our primary school class photo.
and it managed to make my notifications 99 maximum.
i was shocked and impressed indeed.
laughing.
good thing is, the photo has linked me to many lost-contact-old-friends.
it's a memorable photo, all the credit goes to the poster!
:)