contradicting

feel like relying on someone
this feeling comes in a sudden
am i just too tired perhaps?
who knows?
i don't really know it myself
i do admit
i am kind of dependent
but
i am just too weary to move on
trying hard to settle down
although
i am enjoying my single life
it's contradicting i know

advices needed

well
frankly,
i don't deserve it
please don't treat me this well
you know nothing about me
so just leave me alone

i'm still alive but barely breathing...